**Warning (very long post) contains some post surgery pictures** About this time last week (11.30am as I write this) I’d just been wheeled back up to the ward having come round long enough in recovery to ask where my husband was. Other than a few undignified moments, the rest of Wednesday, 2nd January 2013 is pretty much a blur. Ectopic… Read More
Angels
The 15th October each year is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day, and is marked by lighting a candle at 7pm to create a wave of light around the World in remembrance of all the angel babies. I never imagined I’d be in this position but tonight I’ve lit a candle for our 4 angels, the last of whom, if… Read More
Another lost due date approaching
We recently received an invitation to a friend’s 40th birthday party next month, and as soon as I saw the date it rang a bell with me but I couldn’t think why. I’m not saying I’d forgotten what the date was, but I guess I’d pushed it from my mind as a way of protecting myself. It was only when… Read More
Starting over, again
After what has felt like an eternity since the miscarriage, we find ourselves here again – starting over. It gets harder every time, but no matter how hard this journey is, we won’t ever give up on having our take home baby. So, with that in mind, we now begin Clomid cycle number 3 – third time lucky perhaps?? So far we’ve had… Read More
Is this miscarriage finally over…
Apologies in advance for sharing tmi as usual, but hey if nobody talks about these things then how are others going through the same going to know what’s “normal” or not… I’m daring to believe that this last miscarriage is now actually over, nearly 5 weeks after it started. Proper bleeding lasted about a week and since then it’s been brown blood… Read More
Spotty teenager or old granny?!
My hormones are well and truly all over the place since the last miscarriage. I have no idea what is going on with my cycle, I’ve had various niggles that I’d normally put down to OV but that doesn’t seem to be the case now, and over the past couple of weeks my face, and even neck and chest, has gotten… Read More
Mothering Sunday
Today is Mother’s Day in the UK, normally the day doesn’t bother me but this should be my first Mother’s Day, a day I have been looking forward to celebrating for years, but sadly our baby left too soon for me to be one of the Mummy’s celebrating today with cards and flowers. As the months passed, I then was… Read More
I feel numb
I don’t know how else to describe how I feel, just numb. There have been several BFP announcements over the past few days, and although I’m genuinely happy for the people concerned, I have no other feelings about it. In the past if someone said they were pregnant, I’d congratulate them then run home and cry my eyes out that… Read More