I’m currently in the dreaded two week wait, of my first proper cycle following the Ectopic pregnancy. I’m not quite sure how I feel about that. I mean, a part of me a huge part of me really hopes we’ve been lucky enough to fall pregnant right away, but then there’s a part of me that’s scared to get pregnant so soon. In fact scared to ever get pregnant again.
If we are that lucky then it’ll be absolutely wonderful, and we’ll just take it a day at a time. It will also mean we get to be parents by the end of 2013! However, it will as ever bring a lot of worry. Worry that we’ll have another miscarriage, and worry that with a now higher risk of ectopic it’ll end that way. The odds haven’t exactly been in our favour this far – 1 in 4 pregnancies ends in miscarriage; I’ve had 4 out of 4 end in miscarriage. 1 in 100 pregnancies is ectopic; I was that 1. Now that risk has increased to 1 in 10…
As always I’m thinking ahead, but I guess I have to try (easier said than done) to put all that far from my mind. After all, each pregnancy is different, and I haven’t even had a positive pregnancy test yet.
So sorry to hear that you have had four pregnancies end in miscarriage. Yet you remain very positive in the blogs that I’ve read and so gracious. I had a miscarriage in February after two successful pregnancies. It knocked me for six so I am quite in awe of your will to keep going. You deserve some good news. Everything crossed for you.
Thank you for your kind message Amy. I’m sorry to hear of your loss; miscarriage is such an awful thing.
I have to keep going, no matter what this journey throws at me. If I didn’t I’d constantly be wondering what if? That’s not to say I don’t have days where I want to give up; in fact I’ve had a lot of them lately. Then I look at our Godchildren and my cousins’ children and remember why I won’t give up.
Tee x