I’m currently in the dreaded two week wait, of my first proper cycle following the Ectopic pregnancy. I’m not quite sure how I feel about that. I mean,
a part of me a huge part of me really hopes we’ve been lucky enough to fall pregnant right away, but then there’s a part of me that’s scared to get pregnant so soon. In fact scared to ever get pregnant again.
If we are that lucky then it’ll be absolutely wonderful, and we’ll just take it a day at a time. It will also mean we get to be parents by the end of 2013! However, it will as ever bring a lot of worry. Worry that we’ll have another miscarriage, and worry that with a now higher risk of ectopic it’ll end that way. The odds haven’t exactly been in our favour this far – 1 in 4 pregnancies ends in miscarriage; I’ve had 4 out of 4 end in miscarriage. 1 in 100 pregnancies is ectopic; I was that 1. Now that risk has increased to 1 in 10…
As always I’m thinking ahead, but I guess I have to try (easier said than done) to put all that far from my mind. After all, each pregnancy is different, and I haven’t even had a positive pregnancy test yet.