So, after being a downright misery all of last week and at the beginning of this week, and believing my lack of symptoms and numerous BFNs meant the old witch was on her way, it seems I was wrong…
A message from a friend on Baby Centre prompted me to take a test Tuesday evening (15dpo – the day AF was due) and low and behold there was a very faint line. Straightaway I called for my husband to come up to the bathroom to check I wasn’t imagining it, and yep, he could see it too!! Totally shocked, no symptoms to speak of and yet here we both were standing in the bathroom staring at this faint line. I should have guessed when one of our cats started avoiding me, which he’s done every time I’ve had a BFP, it’s like he can smell the hormones!!!
The next morning I tested again using an internet cheapie and the line was still really faint, but as Max pointed out what sort of quality did I expect when I paid £2 or £3 for 30 tests off eBay!! He has a point. So next came the Clearblue Digital test and up popped “pregnant 1-2”, 1-2 being the number of weeks I am, although when the Dr dates this it’ll be 3-4 weeks. Confusing stuff, tried to explain the whole dating system to Mr R but he just couldn’t fathom how I could be 2 weeks ahead of where I actually am. In the end we left it as that’s how it’s worked out because most women don’t know when they ovulate.
Anyhow, all of Wednesday at work was spent worrying as I started having AF type cramps, and the last time this happened is when I miscarried. I felt nauseous most of the day but I think that was due to how nervous I was rather than anything else.
This morning (17dpo) I woke up at 4am and couldn’t get back to sleep, I was wide awake and then my mind started wandering and worrying. Eventually I drifted back to sleep after Mr R’s alarm went off around 5.30, but then I had a horrible dream so as soon as my alarm went off an hour later I rushed to the bathroom and took another Clearblue Digital test. It still showed “pregnant 1-2”. Again more cramps on and off throughout the day, numerous trips to the loo for “knicker watch”, and analysing every twinge.
This evening, I suddenly felt really hungry and shaky, almost like I’d missed a meal or two so I’m putting that down as a symptom, to go with the now yucky taste in my mouth, even water doesn’t taste too pleasant.