Wednesday evening I returned home from work to a thick envelope with a franking mark from the hospital, yep, my appointment letter and paperwork for the booking-in appointment with the Midwife and 12 week scan details. A week after my first miscarriage I got the same letter, now nearly 2 weeks after this one I receive the appointment. I can’t… Read More
Why???
Why are we going through this heartache again? Why us? Why, why, why??? As I hadn’t heard anything from our hospital with details of my booking-in appointment or 12 week scan, because of our previous history, and because I had a bloody “show” albeit old blood, I booked a private scan for Saturday, 25th February to check how things were progressing. … Read More
The day I’d been dreading
Yesterday was our EDD, and it came and went pretty much unnoticed. Again, as with our Godson’s first birthday, I think the anticipation of what it would be like was worse than the reality. Mr R has always maintained we mustn’t dwell on it, and I know he’s right, but over the months it’s been so hard not to. I know he’s… Read More
Bittersweet day
Today is our Godson’s first birthday, and the day before what would have been our due date. I spent most of this morning filled with apprehension of what his birthday party would be like surrounded by babies and people who all have children. Mr R says it does no good to dwell on what would have been, and I know… Read More
Chemical pregnancy #2
I’ve been putting off writing this post, I’m not sure why… We survived the first round of Clomid, and we had a lovely Christmas even though it included the agonising 2WW, and a trip to the hospital for day 21 bloods to be taken. New Year’s Eve (12dpo), I tested. Now being a poas addict it wasn’t the first… Read More
EDD looming
I don’t think I’ve given it much thought before now that the EDD of our lost bean is looming… but this week, every time I’ve used the Baby Centre app on my iPhone it’s automatically gone to the “My Pregnancy” page rather than the community page, reminding me today that I should be 35w+5d… I should have a huge belly by… Read More
Omg!
We went on holiday, we called it our last big holiday before having children in the hope that by next year we’d be holidaying with our little one. AF was due towards the end of the holiday and when it didn’t arrive I put it down to the time difference messing with my body, I was tempted to buy a… Read More