We started trying to conceive again, I’d previously purchased a Clear Blue Fertility Monitor to help track my cycles and pinpoint when I’d ovulate, and now my cycles were averaging 42 days it was time to start using it properly.
Back in 2006 I’d also joined a forum site called Baby Centre, all the ladies were great on there, we all understood where each other was coming from, the hope and symptom spotting that filled the dreaded two week wait (2WW (the time between ovulation and the start of your period, or a positive pregnancy test)), and the frustration when your period turned up, or a friend announced a pregnancy. Sure you were happy for them but why wasn’t it me? My everyday language was full of abbreviations – TTC = trying to conceive, AF = Aunt Flo (period), OV = ovulation, LP = Luteal Phase, DH = dear husband, BD = baby dance (sex), BFN = big fat negative (and hoping it’d be BFP = big fat positive) and lots more. As more and more of the “oldies”, as we were known to the newer (newbie) ladies joining the forum, fell pregnant the more I drifted away from the forum and the support and friendship we’d shared. They were my lifeline when I needed to vent about all the pregnancies occuring in my real life, but now they were pregnant too, what did we have in common any more…
About mid way through 2009 my cycles finally settled down to 35 days, with the odd 42 day cycle thrown in, but I could cope with that. Nothing could stop us conceiving our baby this time around…
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