Waiting

Waiting, I’m always waiting.  Waiting for AF, waiting for OV, waiting for a BFP… You’d think after 6 and 1/2 years I’d be used to waiting and have the patience of a saint, well I don’t.  I’m fed up of waiting.

CD19 and I’m currently waiting to OV.  I can ovulate this late (and later) without Clomid so it’s pretty disappointing for it not to have happened already.  Despite trying to remain positive, when I do finally ovulate I’m now doubtful it’ll lead to a successful pregnancy as I’ve been told my follicular phase temperatures are too high and will most likely cause poor egg quality, and if by some miracle we did get a BFP that it probably wouldn’t implant properly due to a thin lining which is caused by the Clomid, which is the reason for the high temperatures as well as me having headaches, bad cramps at ovulation (nothing like the ov pain I normally get), being irritable, over emotional and constantly hot.  Thanks Clomid; I’m glad the wait for our relationship to be over is nearly here.

Then it’ll be back to waiting, again, and waiting for our next appointment with our Consultant at the end of September.  Waiting to find out what our next step is…. Waiting to become parents, a dream that seems to be getting further and further out of reach.