It’s that time of year again, to raise awareness of Infertility. There’s been lots of talk of it on Twitter over the weekend. Twitter friends going through the same, asking if I will “out” myself. The answer in short is no. Close friends and family (and of course you guys) are aware of what we’ve been through and are still going through, but I don’t feel anybody else needs to know our situation.
Sharing that kind of information to our wider circle of friends will bring questions. Questions that we’re not prepared to answer. Of course, if someone asks me straight out then I’ll tell them the truth, but in general everybody doesn’t need to know. Some might say by not sharing I’m running away from the situation, or am ashamed, but the way I see it is it’s no different to if a couple is having marital or financial problems; nobody would expect them to share that kind of information to a wider audience.
When I wrote my blog post for NIAW last year, which can be read here, I thought we’d have come out the other side by now. I really didn’t imagine I’d still be sitting here childless. I imagined I’d have a baby or a bump by now, and truth is if my last (fifth) pregnancy hadn’t been ectopic then I’d be about 6 months now. So maybe, had that pregnancy not gone wrong, I’d have been writing this from a slightly different perspective. Maybe, being almost on the other side of Infertility, I’d have been willing to “out” myself. I don’t know. All I do know, is that right now, the time isn’t right.